Putting Yourself First

It may be a weird concept for some people to make themselves their first priority but it’s very important to me.

When I was sacrificing who I was and neglecting myself I wasn’t putting myself first. I was putting myself last. Putting yourself first means giving yourself permission to do the things you love. It means not putting limits on what you can and can’t do.

I feel like putting yourself first has a bad stigma for the silliest reasons. Create boundaries can sometimes piss people off because it makes them feel less important when really you’re taking time for yourself. It’s okay to need space to reflect and collect yourself.

I think being assertive is a great way to put yourself first because you’re actually asking for what you want. Don’t ever feel guilty for asking for help or saying no.

There was a time in my life where I wasn’t putting myself first. It was a very dark time for me and I’m glad I brought myself back. I was with a really abusive man and he made me feel so small and worthless. During that time I did everything I could to please him because I thought that’s where my worth was. That’s what he wanted me to believe. He robbed me of my self confidence and dignity. He took away my freedom and treated me like a slave.

The day I took back my power was the day I left and drove away in my black Nissan Sentra. I remember feeling so liberated but scared because I had no idea what I was doing. I didn’t have a place to stay or any money. I had to reach out to my parents, which they happily welcomed me back home, but it wasn’t ideal. I was grateful to be away from the prison my tiny apartment turned into with my boyfriend as prison guard.

For awhile I was fearful that my ex would come after me, but eventually with plenty of therapy and rebuilding my life, I was able to get back to my happy self. I went back to school and got my English degree and bought a new car.

That was back in 2016 and now I’m looking back and I’m amazed. I went through so much but I came out on the other side stronger and feeling worthy.

If I could go back in time and visit myself somehow I would tell myself that I love her. I would tell her how brave she is for finally standing up for herself. I would tell her it’s going to be okay and that one day you’ll look at yourself and not feel disgusted. You will see power. You will see beauty. You will see love.

It’s taken me a long time to get where I am now but I’m grateful for the journey. I’m grateful for the people I had in my corner while I struggled. The helped me celebrate my wins and grieve my losses. I couldn’t have done it without them.

I hope you’re putting yourself first. I hope when you see yourself you see power and someone worth loving. I hope you find a reason to live and celebrate the beauty that you have within you. I hope you come back to yourself.

By itsmaggie92

Hi I'm Maggie and I'm a 28 year old cat lady that loves writing and anything fun and adventurous.

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