Rewrite the Script of Your Life

I forgive myself for not putting myself first.

I used to sacrifice my own needs to satisfy the needs of others. When I’m reality I had no place in fulfilling their happiness. I betrayed myself and losing my own happiness. Instead of taking care of mysel, I was worrying if the ones I loved accepted me. I stretched myself too think for too long to the point my glass was an dry, empty pit.

I pushed myself to the brink of suicide. Looking down below into the mess I created. I stuffed all my problems in that glass and dehydrated myself mentally and emotionally. I thought I needed to betray myself in order for the ones I loved to stay with me.

I was afraid of being abandoned.

I wasn’t accepting myself, but really I was trying to be what everyone wanted me to be.

This roller coaster ride of shame and guilt continues and causes me to lose sight of myself and all the things I loved. I wasn’t present in my life and refused to think of myself as important, worthy or valuable.

When I started to see myself and give myself permission to take up space I saw changes in my life. I saw the girl who was broken and beaten down by herself and I forgave her for feeling afraid and alone.

Look yourself in the eyes and let this truth sink into your soul:

Give yourself grave and patience when you’re in the dark place. Give yourself credit for the little things you do that make you you. This is the only way to make it out of that dwelling place of self denial and betrayal.

Take care,

Maggie xo

By itsmaggie92

Hi I'm Maggie and I'm a 28 year old cat lady that loves writing and anything fun and adventurous.

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