Maggie's Mess

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My life is a metaphor

“Hold tight Hold tight I’m noticing the mine” -$uicideboy$ When I first heard this song I played it on repeat until I could finally make sense of the story that unfolded in my mind. I pictured a boy running through battle. Rifle ready. His uniform was covered in dirty and dried blood. Blood that wasn’t…
Manifestation

This morning I did my usual numerology card pull and something that’s never happened came through. I pulled five cards; the first, a five, which gives relief due to it being familiar, then another five, and then another five! The angel number 555 tells you that you’re going to be experience some big changes coming…
If I were a mother.

I would never shame her for being interested in feminine things like makeup and hair dye. I wouldn’t shame her for wanting to shave her legs or underarms so the kids at school would stop purposefully calling her a boy. I would celebrate her hobbies and aspirations with genuine curiosity. I would ask her questions…
Motivation

It’ll be two years this summer since I uprooted my life to be with my ex who fed into the worst parts of me. There were really good times and really bad times and that’s pretty much what BPD is. High and lows that affect every aspect of my life. I was riding the rollercoaster…
Reconnecting

I’ve been wondering all my life what my purpose is. I constantly ask myself why was I put here on this earth? Everything seems so bleak right now, but I know there’s a light at the end of this unbelievably long tunnel. MY therapist tells me I can’t accept my reality. He couldn’t be more…
I relapsed.

I made it to day 165 before I had a drink. I sat in my car at the park down the street from my house. In the passenger seat was a new pack of Marlboro Black 100s, and two tall cans of Miller Highlife. I wanted Modelo but that’s not the point of this sad…
good things are coming

2023 is gonna be my year & I’m so ready for this next chapter. Power, Justice, & Healing are coming.